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hari ini...

lagi-lagi aku ktemu orang yang mirip bgt ma kamu -_-

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one of the true events

suatu hari sepupuku yg masih kecil nginep di rumah... yang satu kelas 6 sd satunya kelas 1 sd... lalu mama ku masak nugget serta beberapa makanan untuk kami... lalu seperti biasa smua dibagi sama adil... dikasi jatah setiap orang 2 nugget... lalu nugget bagianku kusimpan di lemari untuk makan nanti... ketika dilihat di piringku ga ada nuggetnya.. sepupuku yg masi kelas 1 sd langsung memberikan nuggetnya satu untukku.. padahal aku tau dia sangat suka makanan itu... spontan ku kembalikan lalu dia bilang"udah kenyang" padahal aku tau dia sangat suka itu... dan langsung aku bilang ke dia... nugget ku ada kok kusimpen... sambil kukmbalikan... lalu dia kembali makan dengan lahapnya... dalam hatiku berkata betapa murninya hati anak ini... masih kecil tapi udah ingat untuk berbagi,,, aku jadi inget waktu masih kecil... aku nglihat seorang anak kecil mmbuang sampah jajannya smbarangan... lalu aku bilang ke mamaku yg sedang jalan waktu itu... gak apa apa dia masih kecil... sambil kuambil dan kubuang sampah itu... padahal waktu itu aku masih kelas 1 sd dan sama dengan yg membuang sembarangan umurku dan dia... betapa murninya kita saat kecil... namun smakin besar semakin ternoda dengan dosa... dengki... suudzon... dll...

i'm not the one who broke you, i'm not the one you should fear

i'm the one who helped you from your addiction,
now you left me without a word.. even not a single message you replied.. yeah yeah i know you are happy know... you don't need me

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Help Me!!!

when you're all in need i tried my best to help you, all of you... but what all of you done to me? when i need help nobody even look at me when i ask for help... i just need some little help... where are you when i need your help... you just pretend that you didn't know me before...

it's a sad song with a happy tones!!

really funny when i find this videos... a song that mimed... real become reeling... hahaha... thank's god it didn't naked on the floor

favorite actor

my favorite actor since i was a child is Jim Carrey and Stephen Chow...

tapi sayang makin lama kedua nya makin tua n makin redup... ga semakin bersinar... bahkan film baru jim carrey mr.poppers penguin kurang menarik... CJ7 bagus.. tapi ga sebagus yang diharapkan dari seorang stephen chow... kapan yah orang-orang itu bikin film baru lagi... kangen liat akting mereka yang konyol+mbanyol...

Friends in Need Friends in Deed

kalo lagi susah sedih inget gw...
kalo lagi seneng-seneng ga ngajak-ngajak...

emang sih itu hal yang sepele... tapi coba kamu pikirkan misal kamu datang ke orang hanya pada saat ada masalah... pasti keadaan berbeda dengan ketika kamu dalam keadaan susah atopun senang tetap datang ke orang tersebut... bukannya ga ikhlas nolongin... tapi coba kamu pikirkan perasaan orang tersebut... bagi dia kamu dianggap cuma manfaatin dia sebagai tambal butuh... walaupun orang yang nolong itu ikhlas tetap saja namanya juga manusia... kadang juga bisa terluka... apalagi ketika kamu nangis kamu datang ke dia... eh giliran kamu seneng-seneng,,,, orang yang sering nolong kamu saat sedih... ngajak omong dijawab pun tidak...

Friends in Need Friends Indeed but never take advantage from sincere people

Natalie Imbruglia - Wrong Impression

seeing this remind me of u .. "C"... why you left without any words? and you don't even want to see me... is it true you don't want to leave me with a wrong impression... i dreamt about u yesterday... it was a beautiful dream...

Iris- goo-goo dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you cant fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I dont think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am



this song,,, i dont know why... but somehow it refers to me i think,,,, because of the lyric of someone that can't reach the one that he loved...

to someone that don't even know about my feeling to you.. this is for you

zaverovski re-wind

i was born at 1989's it seems i can't remember how am i when i was born... but my mother told me that when i nearly born.. her grandfather passed away... when he's about to see my born... i don't know... but my important moments always connected with someone passed away... am i bringer of the death? when i was at elementary school i was ever once died... or some people called it "mati suri" almost 1 month i spent my life in hospital... even my mother have asked someone to draw a painting of my face.... most of family member comes and when they in hospital they felt that i'm already passed away... at that time i felt that i was walking with my late grandmother into a peaceful place... but i dont know why i didn't want to go there and i was going back by myself.... sometimes when i remember that time.. i think to myself... why am i turn around? it's more good to me when i was gone at those times.. i was innocent... pure.... at that time.... looking myself today at mirror... i'm not that kid anymore... i've make so many people pull a long face... my college hasn't finished at the time it must be finished.... i still a burden to my mother... even a single girlfriend i don't even have it...damn... am i too ugly? or am i too unlucky? that all past times


right now i tried to change.... repair my looks... my attitude...i just wish someone could accompany me an makes me un-lonely :)